HEh..heh..heh.... I am dead tired from the traveling and long distance driving. But, whatever it is, we made our surprise good for mum. Told her we weren't going to be home for her bday this year. But, anyhow we plan things out and we really shocked her. many thanks to the interview I had to attend yesterday. Travel all the way down to KL right after work on Thursday. Did a good planning and picked up my bro and his gf after my interview and straight shoot home.
Hehehe... My mum called when we were on the way. Told her I was meeting my bro at KLCC. End up she got a shocked when she saw us home.
No matter what, I had a great interview yesterday. And really praying hard that I will get it. In fact, I pretty like the environment of the office. At least I hear people talking and also phones ringing. Unlike the current place I working at.
Haiz... what can I say... I am working in a bird cage that does not allow people to talk to your colleagues. Oh... GOD please help me.............. T.T
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Saturday, November 8, 2008
Thursday, October 2, 2008
Hanging Around...
I am suppose to have drove back to Penang today. God's knows why, I didn't. Even applied for leave for tomorrow. Perhaps things just happens this way.
When dinner with mum, bro and Ee Mun. Seriously, I don't expect to see anyone, especially my old schoolmates. First off would be Fong May, I seriously did not expect to see her after so long. It's like counting back, the last I saw her was when we were Form 5. Yeah, I still remember those times that we attend tuition together. And today, I seriously didn't see her if she didn't call me. Next thing I know she is also in Penang. Well, I guess after all not only me and Saras in Penang for the Convent girls of my batch.
Next off, I don't expect to see Tony as well. It's been like since Upper 6, that's like the last I saw him. I still remember last time when he fetch me to church and back home and we were in the same school for Form 6. Well... I also got to know that he is now working somewhere in Butterworth. Haha...not bad another person I know is working in Penang. Yeah... I hope to meet him up to sometimes when he comes over to the island.
Next off, would be Jia Vei. I seriously didn't see her in Tesco until she called me. Then the news of her friend's car was stolen when they were having dinner at Wooly, Ipoh Garden. Well...lucky her that her course is a 4 years course. I so wanna go back to full time studying. She is envious of me graduating and working now. But, seriously I think she won't be glad if she were to be in my shoes now. I really wish that I can go back to full time studying and not give a damn to the stupid working world.
This trip back is a really fruitful trip. Yet, I a very tiring trip. It's like I suppose to be back for holidays, but end up still no holiday and I still have lots to do here back at home. I also got to meet up with Joanne. It's been like one and half years I have not seen her. She has grown fatter and looks better. She is also much mature compare to last time.
I guess all of us has grown out of everything we were looking back at last time. All of us now seem to have our own path waiting for us to journey down that way. Sometimes thinking back, I really don't know, whether I took the right path or the wrong one. Or perhaps I have been to greedy for trying to kill two birds with a stone. I just hope things will turn out well at the end of it. If not, I guess I will have to sacrifice either my work or my studies. Whatever happens... CHEERS to out future and our journey towards it. Then again, all of us have grown up well and walking all sorts of different paths. Some of us being envious over others path. Some contented and some disappointed and hoping for the best. As for me, I don't know what am I actually feeling. In fact I feel a bit of all the feelings that were mention.
When dinner with mum, bro and Ee Mun. Seriously, I don't expect to see anyone, especially my old schoolmates. First off would be Fong May, I seriously did not expect to see her after so long. It's like counting back, the last I saw her was when we were Form 5. Yeah, I still remember those times that we attend tuition together. And today, I seriously didn't see her if she didn't call me. Next thing I know she is also in Penang. Well, I guess after all not only me and Saras in Penang for the Convent girls of my batch.
Next off, I don't expect to see Tony as well. It's been like since Upper 6, that's like the last I saw him. I still remember last time when he fetch me to church and back home and we were in the same school for Form 6. Well... I also got to know that he is now working somewhere in Butterworth. Haha...not bad another person I know is working in Penang. Yeah... I hope to meet him up to sometimes when he comes over to the island.
Next off, would be Jia Vei. I seriously didn't see her in Tesco until she called me. Then the news of her friend's car was stolen when they were having dinner at Wooly, Ipoh Garden. Well...lucky her that her course is a 4 years course. I so wanna go back to full time studying. She is envious of me graduating and working now. But, seriously I think she won't be glad if she were to be in my shoes now. I really wish that I can go back to full time studying and not give a damn to the stupid working world.
This trip back is a really fruitful trip. Yet, I a very tiring trip. It's like I suppose to be back for holidays, but end up still no holiday and I still have lots to do here back at home. I also got to meet up with Joanne. It's been like one and half years I have not seen her. She has grown fatter and looks better. She is also much mature compare to last time.
I guess all of us has grown out of everything we were looking back at last time. All of us now seem to have our own path waiting for us to journey down that way. Sometimes thinking back, I really don't know, whether I took the right path or the wrong one. Or perhaps I have been to greedy for trying to kill two birds with a stone. I just hope things will turn out well at the end of it. If not, I guess I will have to sacrifice either my work or my studies. Whatever happens... CHEERS to out future and our journey towards it. Then again, all of us have grown up well and walking all sorts of different paths. Some of us being envious over others path. Some contented and some disappointed and hoping for the best. As for me, I don't know what am I actually feeling. In fact I feel a bit of all the feelings that were mention.
Saturday, September 13, 2008
Still in Depression
Being home is still being in Penang. At least now I feel better when I am home. But, thinking of tomorrow going back to Penang, ticks me off again. I am really trying my best to control my emotions. But, I keep failing. I told my mum I really don't want to go back to Pg tomorrow. I really hate the fact that I have to go back tomorrow. I hate the fact even more that the next round I am to return home was during Raya that week. Thinking back, coming home is really a relief for me from all the hazard and buzzer. It's been a month since I last came home, and the last I came home was together with Lex after my convo. That week was the most busy week ever. But, during the busyness I really enjoyed all of it and was very happy as well.
I wished that happiness would have last instead all the ugliness of things. YES!!! I really screwed up my report as I predicted. And YES... I was called in by both my manager and also backup supervisor. SHIT... now I really don't know how to face my own supervisor next month when she comes back. Whatever happens, everything is over. I should be relief that I was only call in to explain myself and to let them know was I too stressed in coping with two big reports at one go. Well...it's settled though.
But, something is still amiss. I don't know what exactly it is. One thing I do still know is that, I am still physically, mentally and emotionally down. I just wish that weekends are longer. At least I can rest more at home and clear off some of things that I need to other than work.
Seriously, I rather stay home in Ipoh to take care of my grandma in nursing home or take my other grandma out and be home with my mum. I feel if, I work in Ipoh also it wouldn't be this bad. At least I know there are people waiting for me at home after a long day of work. I am also human. I also need to socialize. I also need someone to be with. I may look strong, but I am not really what others think of me as. All I just wish is that someone close to be to be with me to comfort me when I am down. Instead of me battling this battle all on my own. I too have a certain limit in taking on things which I think I already have to much on hand that I can't handle it anymore. All in all I only can pray to GOD to bless this daughter of yours with strength to go on.
I wished that happiness would have last instead all the ugliness of things. YES!!! I really screwed up my report as I predicted. And YES... I was called in by both my manager and also backup supervisor. SHIT... now I really don't know how to face my own supervisor next month when she comes back. Whatever happens, everything is over. I should be relief that I was only call in to explain myself and to let them know was I too stressed in coping with two big reports at one go. Well...it's settled though.
But, something is still amiss. I don't know what exactly it is. One thing I do still know is that, I am still physically, mentally and emotionally down. I just wish that weekends are longer. At least I can rest more at home and clear off some of things that I need to other than work.
Seriously, I rather stay home in Ipoh to take care of my grandma in nursing home or take my other grandma out and be home with my mum. I feel if, I work in Ipoh also it wouldn't be this bad. At least I know there are people waiting for me at home after a long day of work. I am also human. I also need to socialize. I also need someone to be with. I may look strong, but I am not really what others think of me as. All I just wish is that someone close to be to be with me to comfort me when I am down. Instead of me battling this battle all on my own. I too have a certain limit in taking on things which I think I already have to much on hand that I can't handle it anymore. All in all I only can pray to GOD to bless this daughter of yours with strength to go on.
Friday, June 13, 2008
Tired and Freaking OuT!!!
Gosh...!!
I am tired. Practically didn't get rest at all the whole of last week. Went home last weekend and practically spent most of the time at the hospital instead at home and rest. Well, at least I am glad now that popo is better than before and during the first few days at hospital. But, I guess it's worth it to stay overnight at the hospital to take turns to take care of her and see her progress of healing. I don't wist for her to go back to that torture house. So, I am really hoping that sis and mum can settle the house soon to shift popo away from that torture house.
Almost got sick and was really tired at work on Monday. Even fell asleep during test of IPDD on Wednesday. Lol... I actually already finish work that's why had a bit of time to sleep while waiting for others to finish. I am excited to go on floor and try out the real cases.
But, when it came yesterday as the last day of training, kinda hope that training will never end. It feels so much like you are attending lecture in Uni. It also got all of us started, "Whether are we qualified yet to be on floor for real cases?"
At the end we cannot avoid it. No matter we still have to be on floor today. Best of all Julia, Eunise and Roger got their cases yesterday. It was fast man. Before even training ended and they got their cases already.
Well, I did not get mine till today at 3 something in the afternoon. Was expecting for IEDD 2 reports but ended up getting an IPDD report... Scary my first report is the most important report. Best of all due date is on my birthday. Lol....actually a lot of things ending on my birthday even supermarket and departmental stores sales ends on that day.
Yeah...I just remember today is Friday 13... Bad luck day.... HAhaha....
Really it is. I only got my case 2 1/2 hours before end of the day and was rushing to finish as much as possible. You just have to finish what is possible. Once you get started on the job, there is no end to it and reports just start stagging higher and higher. Yeah... I would not be having as much as reports as the normal analyst. But, when big projects comes in I am so dead. Coz i will have to handle cases and projects ahead and there are only 3 Analyse Archive including me in the company, and currently only 2. The other will be in next month from the new badge.
It is scary getting real reports and I was like freaking out just now when I got my real case. Was so excited before but when the real thing comes it just scare you out of it. You are just scared that you may not provide the real information that what is needed. Sigh... I guess will jst hv to be confident about it and to face up with all challenges as well as all the responsibilities.
I am tired. Practically didn't get rest at all the whole of last week. Went home last weekend and practically spent most of the time at the hospital instead at home and rest. Well, at least I am glad now that popo is better than before and during the first few days at hospital. But, I guess it's worth it to stay overnight at the hospital to take turns to take care of her and see her progress of healing. I don't wist for her to go back to that torture house. So, I am really hoping that sis and mum can settle the house soon to shift popo away from that torture house.
Almost got sick and was really tired at work on Monday. Even fell asleep during test of IPDD on Wednesday. Lol... I actually already finish work that's why had a bit of time to sleep while waiting for others to finish. I am excited to go on floor and try out the real cases.
But, when it came yesterday as the last day of training, kinda hope that training will never end. It feels so much like you are attending lecture in Uni. It also got all of us started, "Whether are we qualified yet to be on floor for real cases?"
At the end we cannot avoid it. No matter we still have to be on floor today. Best of all Julia, Eunise and Roger got their cases yesterday. It was fast man. Before even training ended and they got their cases already.
Well, I did not get mine till today at 3 something in the afternoon. Was expecting for IEDD 2 reports but ended up getting an IPDD report... Scary my first report is the most important report. Best of all due date is on my birthday. Lol....actually a lot of things ending on my birthday even supermarket and departmental stores sales ends on that day.
Yeah...I just remember today is Friday 13... Bad luck day.... HAhaha....
Really it is. I only got my case 2 1/2 hours before end of the day and was rushing to finish as much as possible. You just have to finish what is possible. Once you get started on the job, there is no end to it and reports just start stagging higher and higher. Yeah... I would not be having as much as reports as the normal analyst. But, when big projects comes in I am so dead. Coz i will have to handle cases and projects ahead and there are only 3 Analyse Archive including me in the company, and currently only 2. The other will be in next month from the new badge.
It is scary getting real reports and I was like freaking out just now when I got my real case. Was so excited before but when the real thing comes it just scare you out of it. You are just scared that you may not provide the real information that what is needed. Sigh... I guess will jst hv to be confident about it and to face up with all challenges as well as all the responsibilities.
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